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  sagittaria
 
05:26pm 14/06/2007
  Hi everyone. Is this community still active? I just joined wellpartners and posted my intro there, but I thought I'd crosspost it here too in case anyone is still reading.

I am in an LDR with my boyfriend who I met online. We've only met in person once. We spent 2½ weeks together in February, and right afterwards he was hit with a depressive episode which he is still in. (He has suffered from depression his whole life.) He is very withdrawn right now and it's particularly hard in an LDR since it means we have no contact. He isn't reading my email or answering the phone. I even sent letters in the mail but he didn't open them. (I found this out because he did pick up the phone and talk to me once, but most of the time he doesn't answer.) So I am having a very hard time, missing him and worried about him, and unsure where to go from here.

We are in a poly relationship. I live with my husband who I've been married to for 20 years. I also have a daughter who has bipolar disorder. She's 18 and has moved away to another state. And I have 3 cats, who are not depressed as far as I know.

I also want to mention another support forum I found, Depression Fallout, which includes message boards and a very popular chat room. I spend a lot of time there.

Nice to meet you all.
 
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hello, i'm new 
  londincalling
 
02:35am 21/11/2005
  i'm basically depressed over a new girl every six months. if things go well, u won't see me often...at 2 am no less. i'm trying not to indulge in sadness and stuff like that but certain runins with certain people(as well as too much time on the computer) have irked at my head a little. so hi, be nice, or mean whatever's whatever.

-mr. calling
 
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  blahblahblah4
 
07:28am 08/07/2005
  Hey everyone-
I first need to start off by apologizing. I have posted this same message to a few different communities with the same focus in hopes of receiving some help. So if you see this more than once on your friends page, I'm sorry but I could really use some feedback.
I will put the whole story behind a cut, but this is regarding my suicidal fiance, whom I love desperately and want to save. If anyone can do me a favor and give me a little advice, I would be really appreciative.
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If anyone can respond, I am most grateful.
 
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  linkinparkdemon
 
02:24pm 24/05/2005
  Okay well I'm in a group thing, and as ya'll know my couselor had gotten laid off b/c of financial issues. Well I went to the doctor last Wednesday, and the psychiatrist said I was doing well, and is taking me off of concerta for adhd/add slowly. Well then I get out of the doctor's office, and the one that is like the head of it tells me, my mom, and my dad that they need to move me from low to high so that I can go through and stay in the program, and I was so upset, and wanted to scream. I am still upset, b/c if it was my other couselor still, I wouldn't be so upset, but I don't care for my new couselor, and I hate going to the groups b/c the kids are annoying and get in my face and stuff. I'm like one of the oldest ones there, and it really sucks that I don't like the people there, b/c I normally like most people. Well okay to tell you all what low is, it is that you don't need as much time with your couselor and as many groups, and high you need more time with you couselor and go to more groups, so I'm so aggrivated by that. It is because of the depression I had went into recently, and I am kind of still in, but am getting out of it in a way. Well anyways that is that, and then my birthday is in 12 days, and I'm going to be 16, and I think I can have four different plans on four different days, but I'm not too sure. Well yeah I am really upset about that, but I'm also seeing a lady that works at the bank, she counsels me, and I like her, but I only see her once a week, and maybe an hour, but she is really nice and sweet, but I still miss my old couselor, and don't like that new one b/c she looked at me like I was crazy one day. Well I'm going to stop ranting on, and I think that you guys should comment on each others posts more often, b/c it really does help. Well talk to you guys later.  
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  moggymania
 
10:39am 24/05/2005
  Since a few people seem to not be noticing this (there have been a few posts in a row)...from the user info for depressionloves: it is for the friends/family of the depressed.

If you are depressed (well, aside from as a caregiver to a D person from the stress) then you'll probably find better help/support in depression.

I don't mean to be rude...but I'm here for support/relief as somebody that has both a mother *and* a boyfriend diagnosed with depression. (Technically Mom has Narcissistic Personality/Schizophrenia/Depression but is medicated properly, while BF has Borderline Personality/Major Depression and is not medicated, argh.) I hear enough about how horrible/depressing/painful the world is from them, what I need is help coping with their emotional problems so they don't make *me* depressed! ;)

On that note -- my BF's issues in particular (MAJOR depression) were starting to really drag me down into his emotional state, and on the recommendation of a good friend, I decided to try taking St. John's Wort. I didn't think it would do any good, but was starting to feel so persistently awful that I had to try *some*thing, and didn't feel prescription anti-depressants were warranted... Much to my shock, within a few days of taking it each morning, I started feeling like myself again, and able to cut myself away emotionally from his roller-coaster! :-D Still worried about him, still stressed by his issues, but now I'm not being overwhelmed by them.

Has anybody else here read the book "Depression Fallout" by Sheffield (self-help guide for partners/family of depressed people), visited depressnfallout or the boards at the Depression Fallout website? I'm finding it helps quite a bit, and the website boards are great support. (No, I'm not linked with the author or anything, just passing on a good resource. :)
 
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My pain 
  pywistik
 
09:22pm 24/05/2005
  Hello! My name is Galina! I am in Russia. Forgive me for my mistakes.
I need to say something that i have kept for so many years!!!
I hate Russia!!! It brought only pain!!!
I tried ti kill myself 2 years ago... i was just too tired... hospital...doctors...depression... pils...
now that's my life... i got well, but i still hate Rusiia and i am still depressed...
thank you all for reading!

x-posted
 
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  linkinparkdemon
 
08:38am 28/04/2005
  I'm still so shaky inside like, and my parents are still worrying, but now so am I. I'm afraid to be sent to the hospital again, I don't wanna go back. No No No! What should I do? I'm not like I use to be, I'm total opposite, and it's making people worry, and now me too.  
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%Nerves Are Shaking From The Inside Out% 
  linkinparkdemon
 
10:19am 27/04/2005
 
mood: scared
I don't know what is wrong, but I know I feel very misunderstood. I am worrying my parents and I hate it. It makes me sick and down. I can't take it like this, it is making me go crazee, and I'm soo frightened to be put in a hospital. :(
 
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  linkinparkdemon
 
12:14pm 26/04/2005
 
mood: depressed
Well I am a new person to this community and this is my first post. So hello to everyone and I hope to hear from you all, and I hope I can be of help to you all also.

Well I am feeling like I'm always put last in friends and it isn't suppose to be that way, and I hate it, it tears me apart, because I care so deeply for my friends, they just don't know it.

Also I'm just a teen, but as a child I had NO friends at all, just me, and well I had my parents, and that was it. I was teased, picked on constantly, tortured, and they even said bad things about my parents.

Well now I'm a teen and well things are okay, but not nearly as good as I'd like them to be, but they will never be as good as I would want them to be. Well anyways, I was diagnosed with ADHD/ADD & Bipolar Disorders. I have been seeing a psychiatrist and psychologist, and I am also taking medication for that, and depression.

Well if I can be of help to anyone, please let me know. I hope you all understand my words, but hopefully don't have to feel how I feel. I'm confused soo much right now.

-Lost Soul-
 
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  billybuttercup
 
08:59am 26/02/2005
  hey everyone...

i just wanted to promote a community that i started that is very similar to this one so i invite you to check it out. it is intended for the loved ones of those who suffer from depression and bipolar disorder. the idea was inspired by a very helpful individual in the depression community who directed me to the work of anne sheffield on depression fallout - a term she used for those of us who have a loved one who suffers from depression or bipolar disorder.

anyways, the community is called depressnfallout and i invite you to all join, and please let your friends, lovers, family members, spouses, etc who are LJ users know about it too!

thanks everyone, i hope you are all well :)

x-posted
 
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  nufin_left2lose
 
05:45pm 02/11/2004
 
mood: depressed
I'm not sure whether I'm depressed, bipolar or what. I'm undiagnosed tho fit symptoms...stuff isn;t good for me anyway...

Noone knows outside of a few close friends, really, my family barely know the 'real' me, well only a ocuple do but compared to most of the people that know me my family know me less well than most...

I appear perfectly normal, intelligent, friendly, love people, etc on the outside, should I open to my family, and how are they likely to react?
 
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  gothic_chibi
 
01:34pm 24/10/2004
  My life has been in shambles since I was thirteen years old.

It was in the November of the winter, my 13th birthday, that I stared to cut and harm myself. I didn't really think anything was wrong with it at the time. From then on, I have been diagnosed with various disorders and such: Bi-Polar, Obsessive Compulsive, Clinical/Manic Depression, Anorexia Nervosa, Occasional Dyslexia, Anxiety, Slight Skitzophrenia, and I am prone to hallucinations.

It is quite the list. But for some reason, I refuse to die. I won't attempt to kill myself. I think that life has so much to give, and it would be a waste to throw it all away. Yet, I still cut and burn. I'm not sure why, and it is rather contradictive of me. I get small bouts of depression now and again where I want to just scream and jump off of a bridge, yes, but I have found that over the years, I can control what I do. I used to think that I had no control. Anyone else believe that if one wants to stop doing something, they will? I used to say that I wanted to stop, but I know now that I really didn't. And I don't, even now. Now, after nearly 7 years of living with it. I have seen many people come and go, and 4 of them commited suicide.

For anyone who has ever felt like they might really commit suicide or do something of that nature: You are alive for a reason, right? Things cannot get worse, so what does that leave you with? Things getting better, right? You have it worse than me, but I survived. There are so many survivors. There is always room for more. <3

I'm such a drama queen. xD <3
 
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Am i welcome 
  lost_hope914
 
10:22am 22/10/2004
 
mood: crappy
Well, ok imma introduce myself. Im 15 and from Va, and i feel basically like shit, i hurt soooo bad...My friend that ive known for 3 years is sayin so many things to me that hurts me, and she keeps sayin how i should be able to be depressed..like shes my mother or something and that makes me mad, but to give you an example of what she says to me...heres a comment left in my journal.

"Look you idiot if anything you dont do shit. I sit there and say something is wrong all you did was sit there and laugh like shit is funny to you all the sudden. And you know what dont ever AND I MEAN EVER!!!! TRY AND GET SMART CAUSE YOU WILL FIND OUT THAT I AM ALOT SMARTER THAN YOU . AND YOU WANNA WHAT ELSE . It takes alot for me not to put my hands on you or humilate you right in front of everyone. OH OH OHOH AND YOU SHUT YOUR MOUTH ABOUT SAYIN WE IGNORE YOU . YOU STUPID DONKEY TEETH SON OF A BITCH. THERE!!!! LOOK YA IDIOT IF ANYTHIN I SIT THERE AND TALK TO YOU AND TRY TO MAKE A CONVERSTAION WITH YOU AND ALL YOU DO IS NOD YOU BIG CANTALOPE HEADROLL YA BULGIN IDIOTIC EYES AND LOOK AWAY TO LIV LIKE SHE'S GONNA HELP YA OUT. AND SHE SITS THERE AND TRIES TO MAKE YOU FEEL LIKE YOUR PART OF OUR WHAT USE TO BE GROUP AND YOU ACT LIKE AN IGNORANT ASSHOLE AND ROLL YA EYES TO HER AND ACT LIKE SHE DOES NOTHIN. SO YOU KNOW WHAT SHUT UP. AND YOU BASTARD ABOUT COMPALIN ALLYOU FUCKIN DO IS COMPLAIN YOU WANT EXAMPLES I THINK YOU WANT EXAMPLES SO I'M GOIN TO GIVE IT TO YOU YOUR MOM NOT WASHING YOUR CLOTHES HAVIN TO WATCH YOU LIL NEPHEW THAT IS SO STUPID BEACUS I'VE WATCHE MINE ALL MY LIFE AND I HARDLY EVER COMPLAIN AND ABOUT HOW NO BOYS OR GIRLS LIKE YOU. AND HOW YOU SO DEPRESSED GET A FUCKIN LIFE.AND ABOUT HOW YOU HAVE TO RIDE THE BUS AND THA HOODIE YOU EWAR LIKE EVERYDAY ITS NOT THAT SERIOUS GET THE HELL OVER IT . YOUR NOT THAT DIRTY. SO SHUT IT.ALL YOU CONVERSATION CONSIST OF IS COMPLAINING.AND OBVIOULSY YOU KNOW NOTHIN BY NOW IF YOUR STILL FUCKIN COMPAINING ABOUT PITTY SHITYOU NEVER WORRIED ABOUT ME IF YOU WORRIED ABOUT ME YOU WOULD TALK TO ME IF YOU WORRIED you would shut you donkey mouth and open you ravinist rabbit ears ya dork but you know what that hing about wishing death isnt goin to earn you any pitty at all so you know i WILL PRAY AND YOU JUST COUNT YA BLESSIN OF THE DAYS YOUR STILL LIVIN YOU ASS HOLE HOPE YA DIE.
MUCH LOVE,
BRITT"

What if she does hit me..im a guy i cant hit girls...My heart feels like its in my stomach right about now...it hurts sooo bad!
 
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Hi 
  lisab86
 
01:46am 16/06/2004
  I just found this community and I think my husband has (?)clinical depression. He is 44 years old and has not been to a doctor for this. We separated three weeks ago and I believe his mental state has a lot to do with his decision to leave us.

In the six years I have known him (married five years) he has had repeated episodes of just being "blue" as he calls it, not interested in life in general. Things that he once looked forward to are now just frustrations to him and I believe I have become a frustration as well.

He often talks about feeling old and missing out on things. Kind of like a mid-life crisis? I've talked to him about getting treatment or talking to someone and his response was always " I don't want to go through life drugged up" and "I can talk to you, why do I need to talk to a doctor?" Uh, maybe because I am NOT A DOCTOR?

I am at a loss as to how to deal with this. I love him and want to help him, but I realize he needs to be the one to help himself.


Glad I found you all.
 
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  bohemianglory
 
04:40pm 01/05/2004
  If this community is still alive..

Hi. I'm Shae. I'm 16. But this post isn't about me, obviously. It's about my dad.

My Dad's 46, and has been married to my mom for over 15 years. Besides me, there's 4 other kids - 2 of which are from a previous marriage and do not live with us. I have two younger sibligns who do, and they are 12 and 9. I just found out that my Dad has been diagnosed with depression, and he has been suffering from it for a very long time. He says he won't talk to Mom about it, because she doesn't want to listen.. She's angry all the time, always yelling and never happy. He gets the brunt of it, but I've had my share. My siblings are ignorant to the matter, I don't think they'd understand. So that leaves me. I don't know what to do. I've distanced myself from him, and only now am I thinking about what I've said to him over the years, because I was stupid. A stupid arrogant teenager who thinks she knows everything. I feel so guilty, thinking about every fight we've been in. Knowing that I can't change it now. I'm afraid that my parents are going to split up, and I'm afraid of what will come after.

I don't want to see him cry anymore. I don't want to be the only one who knows; I don't want him to think that he's a burden. I want him to be happy.

I don't know what to do.
 
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news article 
  mr1spike
 
12:33pm 28/11/2003
 
mood: curious


i don't know if this community is still functioning or not, but i thought this might be of interest:

Diseases of the Mind
"Bacteria, viruses and parasites may cause mental illnesses like depression and perhaps even autism and anorexia [sic]."

(Dec. 1, 2003, Newsweek)
 
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  spyder
 
10:40pm 12/10/2003
 
mood: stressed
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  a_broken_wing
 
11:24pm 04/09/2003
  "The noblest kind of love is love platonical."
—-Byron: Don Juan, ix. 76 (1824).

platonic_love
 
     
 
 
  hollygen
 
10:29pm 31/08/2003
  I see the depression building in her again and it hurts. Not knowing how its going to go. Is she going to throw things, kick and break. Is she gonna just lie there bemoaning the worls and its sister? Am I going to get shouted at, cried at, ignored. It's hard work to prepare yourself when you don't know what for

Love you still, though sweetheart, though I know I don't need to tell you
 
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Hello from a new member 
  mr1spike
 
11:38am 23/08/2003
  Hello!

My wife has suffered from clinical depression since May of 2000. Thanks to medication, she went into remission until April of this year. This recent severe depressive episode was especially hard, and we had to admit to to the hospital. She was there for a total of ten days, followed by three weeks of partial hospitalization. Thankfully, she is in remission again.

Since the nature of this beast is repeat depressive episodes, I was wondering if you kind folks had any personal tips or knew of any resources (web, book or organizational) to help me deal with my wife's condition. On both occasions I basically just "winged" it, and, unfortunately, my responses to her behavior were not the most constructive to her recovery. When and if she has another episode, I would like to be more helpful.

Thanx
 
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